a collection of my thoughts, feelings, photos, likes, dislikes, goals, vents, and much more. Maybe this can help some of you see past my wall of insecurities.
Catching Elephant is a theme by Andy Taylor
People change.
I don’t know why I can’t accept that. I changed a lot too. I just don’t want to see my old friends change into somebody I don’t feel comfortable around. We don’t see each other often because I can’t really open up as easily nowadays. While you guys go off telling me your wonderful or tragic stories, I can’t seem to care because of how shallow they are. I may not be the brightest out there, but I feel much wiser. Go on and be stupid, I really could care less. I’m busy with my life while you’re trying to stay occupied. I get so disappointed when people change, I give up caring. I’ve tried to make new friends and I guess I succeeded at that, but I think I tire of them easily. Jerk move, but it’s the truth. I only trust a few people now an only actually want to see and hang out with certain people. Gosh, I thought I was becoming more sociable…….but now I’m reverting back to being a hermit -____-
Fails at life.
PS ~ I’m at the office right now, obviously not doing my work lol but there’s this big white guy waiting outside the boss’s door. He looked pretty young. And he looked so lost and like a child, just standing there. I felt so bad. So when I passed him by the last time, I smiled at him and he looked like he was upset. I wish I talked to him, but that’d be awkward. Now I’m sad too ): I hate when I feel other people’s burdens! Now I can’t focus. It’s alright, I’m getting paid by the hour bahaha.
Ah, feels good to vent lol.
& last vent- my facial skin is so sensitive! I’m getting rashes and sun spots. I always try to take care of my face, but stupid sun. ):
